Missing you

It's time like this that i miss you a lot and wonder if you miss me too.
Im barely getting by 2 nights without u let alone to say 3.

Sigh. If only you knew.

Letting Go

Letting Go 詞曲：蔡健雅

這是一封離別信
寫下我該離開的原因
我在你生命中扮演的角色太模糊了
你對我常忽冷忽熱
我到底是情人還是朋友
愛你是否不該太認真
That's why

I'm letting go 
我終於捨得為你放開手
因為愛你愛到我心痛
但你卻不懂
I'm letting go
你對一切的軟弱與怠惰

讓人懷疑你是否愛過我 真的愛過我

為你再也找不到藉口

That's when we should let it go

你是呼吸的空氣

脫離不了的地心引力

你在我生命中 曾經是我存在的原因

或許就像他們說

愛情只會讓人變愚蠢

自作多情 愛得太天真

That's why

在夜深人靜裡想著

心不安 血越沸騰

我無助 好想哭

我找不到退路

在夜深人靜裡寫著

心慢慢就越變冷

我不恨 也不哭

我的眼淚 早已哭乾了

So real. So real. 

踮起腳尖愛

踮起腳尖愛(洪佩瑜)

作詞：小寒
作曲：蔡健雅
編曲：Derek Chua

舞鞋　穿了洞　裂了縫　預備迎接一個夢
OK繃　遮住痛　要把蒼白都填充
勇氣惶恐　我要用哪一種
面對他　一百零一分笑容

等待　的時空　有點重　重得時針走不動
無影蹤　他始終　不曾降臨生命中
我好想懂　誰放我手心裡捧
幸福啊　依然長長的人龍

想踮起腳尖找尋愛　遠遠的存在
我來不及　說聲嗨　影子就從人海暈開

才踮起腳尖的期待　只怕被虧待
我搆不著還　微笑忍耐
等你回過頭來

我懷念的

我問為什麼　那女孩傳簡訊給我　
而你為什麼　不解釋　低著頭沉默 
我該相信你很愛我　不願意敷衍我　
還是明白你已不想挽回什麼 

想問為什麼　我不再是你的快樂　
可是為什麼　卻苦笑說我都懂了　
自尊常常將人拖著　把愛都走曲折　
假裝了解是怕　真相太赤裸裸　
狼狽比失去難受 

我懷念的是無話不說　
我懷念的是一起做夢　
我懷念的是爭吵以後　
還是想要愛你的衝動　

我記得那年生日　
也記得那一首歌　
記得那片星空　
最緊的右手　
最暖的胸口　(誰記得)　
誰忘了 

我懷念的是無言感動　
我懷念的是絕對熾熱 
我懷念的是你很激動　
求我原諒抱得我都痛 
我記得你在背後　
我記得我顫抖著 
記得感覺洶湧　
最美的煙火　
最長的相擁 

誰愛的太自由　
誰過頭太遠了　
誰要走我的心　
誰忘了那就是承諾 
誰自顧自地走　
誰忘了看著我　
誰讓愛變沉重　
誰忘了要給你溫柔 (我懷念的)　

我還有想要愛你的衝動 
我記得那年生日　
也記得那一首歌 
記得那片星空　
最緊的右手　
最暖的胸口 我放手　

我讓座　
假灑脫　
誰懂我多麼不捨得 

太愛了　
所以我　
沒有哭　
沒有說

孫燕姿 - 我懷念的 MV

Results of ktv last night. This song, is something really close to heart, and close to my situation and my feelings. No more crying from now.

想問為什麼　我不再是你的快樂　
可是為什麼　卻苦笑說我都懂了 

我都懂了. 

無底洞

作詞:小寒 
作曲:黃韻仁 

有時寂寞太沉重 
身邊彷彿只是觀眾 
妳的感受沒有人懂 
難得誰自告奮勇 

體貼讓人格外感動 
愛上他前後用不到一分鐘 

嘿 
回想戀情的內容 
有誰想過有始有終 
不過是一時脆弱讓人放縱 

穿梭一段 又另一段 感情中 
愛為何總 填不滿 又掏不空 
很快就風起雲湧 人類的心 
是個無底洞 

嘗試親吻 嘗試擁抱 或溝通 
沒有好感 在嘗試也沒有用 
大多數人都相同 
喜歡的只是愛情的臉孔 

沒有誰背後慫恿 
不該愛又愛的衝動 
是你害怕孤單而拼命補充

That sums up how love is. 

Why would anyone want that?

我真的受伤了

主唱：张学友　
作词：王菀之　
作曲：王菀之　

窗外阴天了　音乐低声了　我的心开始想你了　

灯光也暗了　音乐低声了　口中的棉花糖也融化了　
窗外阴天了　人是无聊了　我的心开始想你了　

电话响起了　你要说话了　
还以为你心里　对我又想念了　
怎么你声音　变得冷淡了　
是你变了　是你变了　

灯光熄灭了　音乐静止了　滴下的眼泪已停不住了　
天下起雨了　人是不快乐　我的心真的受伤了

Refreshed

I think I need to pick up a new sport or hobby.
Go out, find something that takes up my time and enrich myself.

After all, I don't live for anyone else. And we all only live once.
The harder you try to live for someone and love someone, you will only end up hurt.

So the best person to love is yourself.
I guess after the haircut and the overnight crying, a lot really came to me.

Why force you to give me assurance and spend time together with me when your heart is somewhere else?Why do I even bother texting so much when that's not what you wants? Why am I the only person bothered about not spending one night sleeping apart? Am I the only one who misses?

Then I realised. I cannot depend on someone, anyone, to make me happy. Whatever makes me happy, may not make everyone happy. Happiness, is really my choice. Sadly, I'm happier without revolving my life around you. When I stop caring, stop being concerned, stop missing, stop thinking about you, I realised that hey, I'm actually really enjoying what I'm doing.

Text someone else to make me happy, read a book to wind down and relax, meet up friends to hang out. These are things that are supposed to feel good, but when I do these things when I built my happiness and sheer purpose here around you and it doesn't reciprocate, it doesn't.

You shall get back the girl you liked in the first place.
And I'd like to say, the game that we played before we were together, is still true in a different context in a relationship.

Whoever love more, loses.

be happy

I remembered warning u about how complicated, torn and broken a person I am. And im not good for relationship. And if I do give a try,  it would be my last shot.

You said u want to make me happy. U said nobody can live alone. So I said yes.

And now, being with me doesnt make u happy. Maybe u should seek for ur own happiness.

You know, this will b my last shot. If this doesn't make u happy, and I still remain unhappy, n none of us have a solution...

When theres a will, theres a way. If only one of us work on it, den its not working.

I made the choice n I say it again, I just wan u to b happy. Do whatever u like and b what u wanna b. Theres no need to consider abt me. Because there will b minimal me.

U fell in love w the girl who wasnt in love w u. N now u hate the girl whos in love. Irony.

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I always thought all we need is more concern, think- about how to love you more, and do- within our means to keep it going. All I do now is tear every 2 minutes at my desk, it's so unbearable. And all I can do at home is either to hug or cry to myself to sleep.


All you do is ignore me, and live in your world. Without me.
Since I'm not what you first fell in love with, there's no need to bother about how to love me more, no need to try and keep it alive.

Cant you tell that I'm putting in effort to want to talk? Be nice, be lovely and all? And you think one word answer is encouraging? If you want this to work, we have to work together. I apologised and I know I should not have said such hurtful words and be so sticky. But it will not work if it's just me trying on my own. Im running out of fuel. And if you dont jump in soon, I might not make it.


Then again, all you need is a traditional wife who just take whatever given right? Shall I be that for you?

Im losing myself, Im losing my mind but there's no one to wipe those tears away. 

No one to hear my unspoken troubles. 

No one.

Confused

If the more you think about something, the more it doesn't seem right, will you take action on it or will you choose to ignore it?

Would you go on with your life lying to yourself it's alright, or would you bear the pain and walk away?