Daily Horoscope

My daily horoscope says that the Moon/Neptune conjunction will urge you to protect yourself, hence a difficulty to express your feelings.

One of those days that horoscope's actually a good reflection. I want to crepe back behind my wall, where behind it, is a land absent of pain, of hurt. However, loneliness and the unknown will pay me visits sooner than I realise or care to believe in.

Till now, I still don't understand. How can I forgive, how can I accept, how can I still want to do this? I can only think of one answer. Which is a dumb answer.




Love had turned me dumb.

Tired

I'm tired I'm running low and out.
I'm not sure how long more can i keep this up.

Please come and save me soon.

Fall in love

U fall out so u can fall back in.

I wan to fall in love again.

The irony of love

U said u love the sun,
but u'll always put on ur shades when its sunny.
U said u love the rain,
But u'll draw ur umbrella out when it rains.
U said u love the wind,
But your windows n doors r always shut.
U said u love me,
But u always push me aside.

The irony of love.

Loneliness

Sadness is beautiful.
Loneliness is tragical.

N it's really lonely now.
Im alone.

Just on my own.

2nd Anniversary!

2 years is not long, but it's definitely not short. These 2 years has been full of fun, joy, disturb, challenges and hurdles, but we made it this far. Its amazing isn't it?

This journey has been an incredible roller coaster but I'm glad I'm taking it with you. We grew up together, a little older together. We changed, we changed tremendously. But still, its easy for me to find things to love about you. I'm glad it was you.

Humans, people, they are always looking for the perfect person to be with, The One for them. But I've learnt in these 2 years, that there is no such person. There is no such person because nobody is perfect. But if I only see the good in you, you are perfect in my eyes.

There isn't a perfect couple, that has no challenges and relationship's smooth sailing. There's only a couple who claps and make things works, and never stop falling in love again.

And I don't think I will ever get tired of falling in love with you. Thank you, for being a part of my life, for giving me 2 years of memories, warmth, love, care and a home to return to. I love u.

Happiness

There has been a lot of misconception about happiness; that it's given, it's luck and if you have happy times, you gotta have unhappy times as well.

Over the last couple of days, I finally realised. Happiness is not given or granted by anybody. It's a choice. You choose to be happy, you choose to spend your time with whoever, in the path to happiness, you made every decision that led to it.

If you choose to be upset by something you see or hear and it led to a series of reaction, you chose it.
If you choose to look on the bright side and that doesn't look too shabby, you chose it.
In the end, you will only truly be happy if you CHOOSE to be.
Otherwise, regardless of what people do or say to please you, it will never be enough.
I've learnt this the hard way and realised that what I have done was wrong.
Good thing is, it's never too late to learn to be happy and love yourself more. :)

On the same topic of choice, it's also your partner's choice to stick around. And if so, he/she is recognising that they want to share their happiness with you. Never undermine the power of choice.