I want to go back to running again. Although I stopped for the last 1.5 years because of my knee. zzz.
Let's make use of this time to bring back the me from before and to continue with life. :)
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
问世间情为何物
人, 本来就是脆弱的。
心, 本来就是感性的。
为何人总是不会珍惜拥有的。
把本有的那颗心砸碎、摧毁。
为何心总是放不下失去的。
坚持着曾经、过去的幸福。
幸福走了、心碎了。
希望毁了、情也冷了。
伤害只会让人领悟残忍。
哭泣只会让人看到卑微。
人生短短，如果情不带给你快乐, 你又何必勉强呢？
心, 本来就是感性的。
为何人总是不会珍惜拥有的。
把本有的那颗心砸碎、摧毁。
为何心总是放不下失去的。
坚持着曾经、过去的幸福。
幸福走了、心碎了。
希望毁了、情也冷了。
伤害只会让人领悟残忍。
哭泣只会让人看到卑微。
人生短短，如果情不带给你快乐, 你又何必勉强呢？
Offer
I started this blog thinking that in many many years to come, when I am going to run out of things to share with my grandchild (ren), I will be able to revisit this and find a story. However, there seem to be more sad and trying story from some time ago.
As bleak as the situation is, as much as people tells me he was after other girls and if given a chance, he would ditch me for another better girl, I stopped getting affected. I stopped getting affected not because it doesn't hurt, but because I trust him. I trust that as we agreed 2 years ago, if he find another girl, break up with me before doing anything with her. It's the last respect you can give to the relationship.
And therefore, I accepted his unreasonable unsettling offer, knowing that I would might not be able to handle it. This goes a little across the line of trust. Trust is gained, not asked for or forced. However, What's forever if we cannot even get pass 2 months? What else can I do? In this process, I find that he's right. I learnt to let go.
I let go of a lot, but as I let go and care less, I also realise that I no longer feel what I used to feel. I feel major construction going on and the high-rise walls that used to be, risen again. And it's an accumulated feeling. Over time, will this period make things better? Or for worse?
Somehow it doesn't feel like it'd work. If I don't do anything, how will it rekindle? Or maybe that's exactly what he doesn't want to happen.
:(
As bleak as the situation is, as much as people tells me he was after other girls and if given a chance, he would ditch me for another better girl, I stopped getting affected. I stopped getting affected not because it doesn't hurt, but because I trust him. I trust that as we agreed 2 years ago, if he find another girl, break up with me before doing anything with her. It's the last respect you can give to the relationship.
And therefore, I accepted his unreasonable unsettling offer, knowing that I would might not be able to handle it. This goes a little across the line of trust. Trust is gained, not asked for or forced. However, What's forever if we cannot even get pass 2 months? What else can I do? In this process, I find that he's right. I learnt to let go.
I let go of a lot, but as I let go and care less, I also realise that I no longer feel what I used to feel. I feel major construction going on and the high-rise walls that used to be, risen again. And it's an accumulated feeling. Over time, will this period make things better? Or for worse?
Somehow it doesn't feel like it'd work. If I don't do anything, how will it rekindle? Or maybe that's exactly what he doesn't want to happen.
:(
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Trust
Trust is built over time and all it takes is one small wrong step and you would have broken it.
Letting go and leaving you alone, is just my resignation to fate.
Whatever is mine will come back. Whatever doesn't come back is probably not mine to begin with.
Letting go and leaving you alone, is just my resignation to fate.
Whatever is mine will come back. Whatever doesn't come back is probably not mine to begin with.
Saturday, June 21, 2014
Happy Times
When we were happier, skinnier and in love. When things were less complicated and we are just together because of love.
Recovery
Spiritual cleansing. Get totally drunk.
Feels like sh*t the next day in terms of the heavy head n lack of sleep n intoxication. But at the same time, triumphant that amidst all, you are on the way to recovery.
Feels like sh*t the next day in terms of the heavy head n lack of sleep n intoxication. But at the same time, triumphant that amidst all, you are on the way to recovery.
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